I don’t know if it is because I’m getting older or because I’m at a different place in my life than I was a year ago but I’m struggling with running, and it’s frustrating. I can’t pinpoint why it’s so much harder for me now than it used to be but I just can’t seem to get back in the groove. Don’t get me wrong, I genuinely love running. I love the endorphins I get after a long run, I love the comradery of the running community, I love that running isn’t about competing against everyone else but competing against yourself, I love that a good run can clear my mind and turn a bad day into a great one, I LOVE running magazines and books, I love the energy of races, and I love that running is by far the best stress reliever and natural anti-depressant you can find. So with all the reasons I love running, why has it been such a struggle for me the past few months??
After my first half marathon in February of 2014 I took some time off. I would still run now and then but I wasn’t dedicating my saturday mornings to long runs anymore and I wasn’t worried about how often I ran or my pace. Now that I’m trying to train again for another half marathon I realize that I shouldn’t have stopped. It’s so much harder this time around to increase my mileage and decrease my time. I honestly feel like I’m starting all over again from ground zero. I have my good runs where I remember what an “easy” run feels like but more often than not it’s a struggle for me to get through 3 miles. I’m constantly reminding myself that it will get easier and I will get stronger. I did it once, I can do it again.
My friend Nicole and I ran/walked the Surf City 10K last month and it was so fun! I walked a lot more than usual to keep pace with Nicole but I didn’t mind at all. We were out there to burn calories while enjoying each others company and motivate each other. It was fun for me to support her and encourage her to finish strong. She has two kids under the age of two and I was proud that she was willing to run with me and try her hardest.
I know that training for the Surf City Half Marathon is going to take time, dedication, and perseverance. I have to take the good days with the bad and not be so hard on myself. I may not be as fast now as I used to be but I’m also not as young or trying as hard as I could. As hard as it is for me right now I will never lose my love for running. At the end of the day, all things worthwhile don’t come easy. If they did we wouldn’t appreciate them as much. Running for me is proof that I can do anything I set my mind to. Now if only my legs and lungs would cooperate 😉